I am writing you from a Flying J truck stop somewhere in Oklahoma; we are on our way home from the Music As A Weapon Tour, having just completed three months on one of the biggest and most rewarding tours of my career.
I am feeling a strong rush of emotion that I have felt many times in the past — I casually call these feelings “The End of Tour Blues” but in reality, it goes a lot deeper than that. I have been dreaming of being in a rock band since I was 12-years-old and almost every waking moment from then until now has been spent trying to achieve that dream. I did it — I am in a successful band that has released three albums, played all over the world and shared the stage with some of the biggest bands in the world.
I am living my dream, but after a humongous tour like Music As A Weapon, the fear of “Will it ever happen again?” hits.
I know it sounds a bit depressing but in this business, you just never know. Things change, people change, and you can never predict what curveball life will throw at you next.
After all the years of struggling to get where we are now, I will never take for granted how lucky I am to have had the opportunities our band has had. Wes Geer, the touring guitarist for Korn, said something that really resonated with me. He said “Every show is a blessing and you never know after you finish a tour if that was the last time you will take the stage.”
I had these same feelings in 2007, at the end of our first touring cycle. We ended the cycle with Ozzy Osbourne and Rob Zombie in arenas and I was so nervous about the future: would we ever be able to get back here again? How can we top that?
Four years and two albums later, we just wrapped up our second arena tour. Our band is still going strong and still growing and you have to keep your head down and push through all the fear and doubts. In the end, I still have the “End of Tour Blues.”